More than a Soap Dispenser

A few weeks ago, I bought myself my very first fancy soap dispenser. In fact, I bought a set of two matching soap dispensers.

And I celebrated because this is a big deal!

I’ve always purchased the plastic, filled-with-soap, ready-to-use dispensers you get at the grocery story and just refilled those. But now - as we are settling into our new house - I wanted something nicer. Something that said “home.”

It may seem a small thing but, to me, it signifies a huge shift in how I see myself.

I recently completed coursework to become a certified Soul Level Intuitive Coach®. To obtain this designation, I had to go through the work myself and dive deep into the negative beliefs I hold and uncover how I deal with them. In doing this work, I am growing into the person I am destined to be. And it’s amazing!

But first - let me provide a little more context. I’ll try to keep it in a nutshell.

In Soul Level Intuitive Coaching®, I work with my Spiritual Guide Team to help people identify which of the four negative beliefs (not worthy, not lovable, not good enough and not safe, secure and protected) they are working on at that specific time. All of us humans are working on all four negative beliefs throughout our lives, just in varying degrees and at different times. Once we know which belief we’re working on at that time, my Guides walk us through a process to find out when this belief started (ages 0-5 usually) and the influencing factors (family, friends, situations) surrounding us when the belief took root. Once those pieces are clear to the client, we (the client and my Guides) begin to discover Work Arounds. These are actions or behaviors - from very tiny to pretty big - that we use on a regular basis to shield ourselves from the pain of the Negative Belief. The healing comes when we reveal the Work Arounds, we become aware of them and in that awareness, we are able to move through the Negative Belief in a new way and while doing so expand ourselves, making steps toward the life we were meant to lead. That’s the super-fast, nutshell version - learn more here or contact me with questions!

Now, back to the story… with that in mind - here’s why the soap dispenser is such a big deal for me.

I am working on the Negative Belief of Not Worthy. For a variety of reasons, starting when I was 2 years old, I began to feel that I wasn’t worthy. My influencing factors were my parents when I took on their emotional states that, at that time, sparked a need in me to make everyone else happy before I would take care of myself. Everyone else was worthy of my attention and caring - but I wasn’t worthy of it myself. That’s where it started and as I continued to grow up, this Negative Belief grew its own root system.

I discovered - and continue to discover - a lot of Work Arounds (i.e. the root system) this Negative Belief has created. Some Work Arounds are really big like my need to constantly move to new places (which, btw, Work Arounds are not always negative - many of them can be positive too! I love getting to know new places). Other Work Arounds are really small - like buying a new sweater and then not wearing it for fear of ruining it. Or - like in this situation - never allowing myself to have grown-up soap dispensers. The plastic ones are just fine I’ve always told myself! As long as you refill them, you’re good.

Fast forward to a few months ago when we bought this new house. It feels like a grown-up house. And I manifested it! I asked the Universe for a small house, that was in our price range, didn’t have a ton of spiders (that was the last house - ugh!), that we didn’t have to do much to it, that we could easily maintain, enjoy and had access to a great place to walk Lukas. And bam! We found this house and outbid 32 other people to get it. I honestly don’t think we would have won the house if I hadn’t and continue to do the Soul Level Intuitive Coaching work I’ve done. It has given me a sense of confidence, peace and worthiness I’ve never felt before.

So when we moved into the house and I sat my regular plastic soap dispenser on the kitchen counter I realized I was using a Work Around to shield me from a part of me that still felt unworthy! Here I am, in a house I’ve dreamed of, and am using the same old plastic bottles of soap? Nope, not this time! I am worthy to have something nicer. Et voila! Brand new soap dispensers - and a new outlook on life.

A celebration of investing in my home.